To give it all....

"So I'll stand with arms wide and heart abandon. In awe of the one who gave it all. so ill stand my soul to you surrendered, all I am is yours..."

I have heard this so many times and it never ceases to touch my heart. These words are so real and true. I feel like I have given everything to God but I really haven't. There Is stuff I want to keep from God, but I cant. Their is no escaping his love or him.
Lately I have been trying to give everything to him. If I feel angry to pray and give it all to give Him all my emotions. It's is so hard to give everything to him. You know how you tell you best friend everything except that one little thing? I want to be able to give it ALL to Him not 90% but 100%. People see me as the crazy christian who went to Africa. I don't feel like that sometimes, well its hard to forget that we went but what I mean is, I'm just another person who lives for God. I'm never going to be worthy of His love or His mercy, but He gave it to us anyways. WHY? Because he loves us. I don't know why he would love crazy sinners but God is God right?

-Lu

Obedience

Obedience is important whether your 2 or 20. I say this because i have a lot of siblings, and its pretty hard to live in a comfortable environment when no one is listening and everyone is running umuck. It's also an important skill for when your an adult because if you don't listen you cant earn money, blah, blah, blah... Anyways its pretty important, and personally I'm a talker NOT a listener. So really following orders isn't really easy for me. Sometimes its just about biting my tongue. This is what the bible says about obedience:


"Now if you obey me fully and keep my covenant, then out of all nations you will be my treasured
possession. Although the whole earth is mine, 6you^a will be for me a kingdom of priests and a holy nation."


That's sounds pretty good to me, just for obedience. God is good eh?


-Lu

Who would have thought?

Who would have thought I would be here right now, sitting on my bed thinking of all those I left behind in Uganda. It was like leaving here. So hard and painful. I still ask myself "Would I rather live in America or Africa?" This question still lingers in my head. I think it's not really the location, it's the people. I say that and you would think, "Then why not America?!" Well, I have people I love in both places. It's like choosing over best friends, fricken hard. I definitely don't know why God would push me from place to place, hurting my heart each place. I read this in psalms and its kind of like how I am right now;
"God tested me, he pushed me hard, but he didn’t hand me over to Death."

No I'm not sick, nor dyeing. Instead of death I would say, "God tested me, he pushed me hard, but he didn't leave me."
He didn't leave me. That makes me feel so comforted. I'm never alone no matter what.
Sometimes I wonder what it's like to not have God. It sounds so lame and lonely.
I know it sounds hard and even pointless but if you take the extra minute and ask someone of the would go to church with you, could make all the difference.

-Lu

Update

We have all been adjusting very well, and I'm finally getting in the groove of things. we started school again and it's kinda starting to feel like home. It has been great  to see my family and friends, but Im really starting to miss Uganda. I miss everyone and most everything. I feel like this is the short term thing, not like Uganda was. It's not like I feel out of place, I definitely feel in-place but i miss Uganda. when i get the chance I hopefully can go back. that is what I'm praying for.

I also want to thank everyone who reads my blog, or anyone else who has supported my family in our ministry. I love you all and appreciate you.

-Lu

My Master

Job continued by saying: “So what’s new? I know all this.

The question is, ‘How can mere mortals get right with God?’ If we wanted to bring our case before him,

what chance would we have? Not one in a thousand! God’s wisdom is so deep, God’s power so immense,

who could take him on and come out in one piece? 

No one. That's the answer. We can't do anything without the help of God. God is mighty and powerful. God is like the coolest super hero ever. In the history of the world. Amen. No more to say. 

What I mean is God is the world. He made us and knew that when he created the world, I would be here at 10:44 writing a blog post. He knew and he knows what I'm doing tomorrow when I don't. That might freak some people out. I think of it like this: God watches us, keeps us safe, and is there for us when no one else is. Isn't it great to have a master so good?? I think so. I don't really understand God at all. He gave HIS son to save OUR world. that is sometthing no one I know would do. People might say they would but the only person who really knows if we would or not is God. oh my goodness I feel so weak. I'm so thankful for this ultimate sacrifice.

-Lu

As most of you know I'm back. It is so weird to have non concrete floors or walls, or pizza with sauce. Also all the white people. Its so different here, all the food, wealthiness, the really different personalities between Africans and Americans. I'm just going to talk about those three things: food, wealthiness, and personalities. 

Food: SO MUCH FOOD!!! There is places to eat almost everywhere I look! Oh and its like all fried! ugh. It gets nasty after a while though.

Wealthiness: People wear name brand clothes and eat steaks and expensive food. It drives me crazy (not that i don't like a good steak.) People spend a lot of money on FOOD and clothes. I shop at target. It drives me nuts that people spend hundreds of dollars on clothes. I mean I'm not saying i would not enjoy that , but people are dying, they are starving, and we spend money like nobodies' business! 

Personalities: Africans are nice. They ask how you are when you are just walking down the road. In america people get mugged just by walking down the road. What does this tell you? It tells me that america needs an attitude adjustment. These things i don't get, when your hungry and have no money (in america) your rude and snobby. In Africa people are nicer. 

This is not about everyone but a lot of people.

-Lu

Africa or America?

I am in such a weird place right now, I can't decide to be happy or sad about leaving. I love Africa an would choose it over America any day, but I love my family so much. It has been the best 6 months ever. If only African houses had a,c and my family lived here. Sigh. And what are we going to do about all the processed food?! In Africa there is caterpillars in your cabbage, and I speak from experience. I think America can and should change America is just a difficult country. I mean is it really truly necessary to give chickens steroids because I thought steroids were illegal?  And why are we the ONLY country that calls fresh fries?! In Africa life is simple. I can't believe I'm going back.


-Lu